A woman who sits on great sums of donated monies and doles out the most basic of pain relief to the dying, so they can be more like Jesus, is an object of scorn, not worship.
That said, an article like this, doesn’t bring any pleasure to me. If anything, it is more saddening that you engaged in such atrocious and immoral behavior despite knowing better; that you neglected your humanity to suck up to the nonsense of spirituality.
You sacrificed the comfort and peace of others on the altar of your own perceived spiritual inadequacies. If there be a hell, may it have a special place reserved just for you.